twists & turns
October 14, 2010
I have my days when I feel like breaking down and cry until my eyes hurt because I feel like everything is falling apart and there isn’t one thing I can do about it. Like I have no say whether or not my life is going well. I get mad easily, and I over think all the time. What ifs often get me into trouble; and make the situation worse, but I am never going to stop thinking them. I may not be the prettiest or the most popular woman in the world, but I am okay with that. I am okay that I may not be the smartest or the funniest either. I understand that sometimes I have to fall in order to see if I can get back up and move on, and I am okay with that. I understand that I can’t always get my way, even though I wish that wasn’t always the case. And I realize that friends will sometimes stab me in the back which means that they aren’t friends, and I need to push them out of my life.
Life isn’t an easy ride. There are ups and downs, twists and turns, but in the end, I smile and tell myself that it’s alright.